Some people make me so angry that I want them to fail in some way... there, I said it out loud. You have my permission to do the same. Why? Because you need to get it off your chest - so you can see it more clearly.
Have you met a person who has the capacity to push every single one of your buttons, and raise up an anger you didn't even know it was possible to feel?! To the point that you want them to feel as bad as you do, now that they've pushed all their anger onto you...
Have you met the person who wants you to be as angry as they are because they can't describe their own emotional pain - so they just throw it at you. And throw it at you in such a way that you have no chance but to just feel what they feel... to feel their unworthiness of peace and respect - to feel their need to fail? They do this with such intensity that you wonder if you are going mad. Where did all your good energy go? Why are they smiling when you feel bitter and angry?
I have met this person and she made me angry at her, really, really angry... before I realised it was her saying that she wanted to fail, so someone would see her pain. I didn't want this for her. Rather than me telling her I wanted her to fail, she was telling me and I was giving it back to her.
It's not that I let her anger in, not really. She wanted it to be mine. I now avoid her - she is bad for my emotional health. She doesn't really want to change her life, she just wants to continue to push her anger at whoever is close by rather than deal with it herself.
We need to be so careful with feelings of anger - careful that it's really ours, and that we are not carrying around others' pain. We need to understand if they have given it to us because they can't manage it, but now it's hurting us so much that we try to throw it back at them just as harshly as they gave it out. It's a vicious cycle if we let it be.
This person has shown me that we can hurt ourselves, by allowing our psychic barriers to be down. If we are not careful enough about protecting ourselves, we let the anger in the world around us move in and set up home inside of us!
This person doesn't understand her own pain or what she is doing with it. She just acts in ways that violate those around her. She actively turns people away from her so that something inside of her is justified. She needs the pain of failure, but wont let herself be seen to fail. So she preserves herself by allowing others to wear what she feels. She weakens those around her so she can feel powerful, and she lets everyone see pain by pushing hers around. She is very sneaky as she does this, she pretends to be everyone's friend but is actively stabbing them in the back at the same time. It's a hard situation to manage.
There are very few boundaries we can hold to such a person, other than this: I offer you peace and love - then we need to let their anger just flow through us and back to their own space, where they can learn to manage it. We might need to walk away from them, if we can. Though that's not always possible. Perhaps we need to walk away metaphorically, or emotionally rather than physically. We might need to stop and wonder if our own anger is getting in the way. What role does our anger play in this? Do we have our own issues to resolve, are we holding onto their anger in order to justify our own?
Today you are being guided to take a moment to reflect on that frustrating situation in your life - what do you really feel about it, and what belongs to others? More importantly, though, what are are you going to do with those feelings? If you are living with spirit in your life, ask them today to show you the way through this. They will protect and guide you as you weave your way through such situations. They want you to heal, just as you want those around you to feel less pain and more love.