I thought that I would share a personal story here about manifesting our desires, as it is important that we understand the full scope of change that has to occur within ourselves before we can fully receive good things into our lives.
I met a healer recently who took one look at the tension in my neck and and told me that I had a massive case of 'future-fear'. He explained that I have a habit of projecting my fears into the future. That I tend to go around and around potentially threatening scenarios in order to ensure I can protect myself - none of which ever eventuate. He then tells me this is the result of past experiences which have not been resolved - I feel under threat from something.
This concept of future-fear has never been put to me so succinctly. If we are constantly projecting our fears into the next moment, we can only live in this space of lack. Fear takes up the next moment and the next...
So, if I want to continue building more success, abundance, health etc for myself, I need to look into this. What am I trying to protect myself from? A constant need for protection, does not really bring about the fullest space of positivity that I can inhabit!
If I am going to manifest everything I want from life and my business I need to go into the depths of healing - and deal with the pain, frustration, fear etc that resides in those bits I have pushed away. So, in resolving this future-fear, I went right back to childhood and to my first swimming lesson. I was three years old and terrified of the pool. I refused to be a part of the lesson and just sat there, while the other kids were taking part. Right at the end of the class, however, the teacher picked me up and threw me in. I remember very clearly the shock of it, not being able to breathe and knowing this was how people died. I couldn't protect myself from this person, and being only three, couldn't explain my fear to anyone.
The anxiety of this event had never been resolved, and I still, on some level, felt the need to protect myself from potentially uncontrollable situations - it explains why I didn't learn to swim until I was in my 20s too!!
Manifestation is about allowing ourselves to receive, and many of us just receive fear. We don't have our happy-channels turned up high enough, for reasons such as my childhood event above. The heaviness and drag that unresolved anxiety plays out on our system is intense. If I was to continue to move around those future-concern thoughts, it would be very hard to mange this business, and my own soul-calling here. The drag of negativity puts a lid on our ability to draw in ideas, and put them into action.
So, more than just positive intention, we need to see what it is that is stopping us to from being able to exist within positive energetic vibrations. It is worth noting too that it wasn't until I began working with the Law of Attraction that these fears began to rise to the surface to be seen. So when we start to work on manifesting money, for example, the first thing that rises is our fears around receiving. What part of us is closed off?
Strangely once I faced this fear and let go of it, my money problems disappeared and I felt more at ease with life. Of course there are more fears to face too. But that's ok! Once you get through the first round, you are well equipped to face any other challenges that arise.