I've been contemplating fear and suffering in my own life today and I've come to realise that the more we connect with the God part of ourselves, or even the God you believe in outside of you, the more the pain of the past is soaked up and carried out of your system.
What I want to share with you is a very brief story. This story is about pain and frustration and how you might be able to deal with that...
Say you are the victim of aggressive behaviour - be in it childhood, a friendship, or a partnership. It might be anger or rage from someone who is supposed to care for you, or it might be the vindictiveness of a co-worker. It might even be violence against you by a stranger or a person who says they love you.
Say you are unsure what to do with this pain at the time of event. You feel scared or angry but don't have the resources to deal with it. You bury it, possibly for a long time and then it rises. Unexpectedly, frustratingly in your face and you are unable to move forward with life. You battle against it hoping it will just disappear, perhaps you go into therapy and try to understand it.
Maybe you move on, but possibly you see yourself changing, unable to move on, unable to let go. You see that you are uncared for in ways that you didn't expect. And you see that you had very little will over the situation you were in but, you feel that you were to blame.
This is not an uncommon in our lives. We live in space where many people have been abused in varying degrees - physical, emotional, mental and ultimately energetic.
Energy trauma is the result of physical or emotional abuses. It is that part of you that is deeply uncared for, and possibly too scared to speak up. Energy trauma is the feeling that you just can't move on out of this situation, that life wont get better any time soon. If at all. This energy trauma is not dealt with in our society very well. We circle around it, we hope that with our therapy and manifestations we will just get on with our lives.
What we need to do is connect with that energy. This trauma is what disassociates us from God. I do not mean the God of religion (judgmental and fierce) but the God with whom you guide your life. The God within - the energy inside of you that allows you to create life just as you want it - allows you to manifest your dreams with thankfulness and grace. We have lost this connection because so few of us have been taught of the protection, safety and the joyfulness that is allowed in this space.
My own discovery of this part of myself has led me down a very winding road, in and out of fear and therapy and through to this God space that I want to share with you. It is the meditation described below that has led to my own inner-calm... all you need is a few minutes
Sit quietly or lie still, body relaxed
Take in a few deep breaths allowing your eyes to gently close
Feel the energy of life coming into you as you breath in and then allow yourself to relax as you breath out
Say thank you for this meditation and healing that you are about to receive
Place your hands in the centre of your torso. Feel the pulse of life there.
See it as a ball of light - possibly gold in colour - this is your God self - energetic, pure and graceful.
Ask if it has a message for you.
Images, words or just feelings will come to you. Perhaps there is just silence or stillness radiating out from this space.
Ask questions if you feel prompted to do so.
Feel the energy close as it is ready to do so.
Allow yourself to slowly come back to the room, and open your eyes.
If at any time you feel distressed, anxious or frustated, just see that ball of light - that God-Centre simply sitting there. Connect with it for a moment and remember how safe you are. It is in this space that fear, self-loathing and frustration no longer matter - because we see the 'real' life that is all around us. We see that we are safe and that we have someone watching over us... and no matter what our experiences may have been they need not define us.
Warm wishes
Monique